Zhang Ailing again... To reconcile, is to stop retaliating oneself...

Perhaps, to fall in love means for two completely strangers to trust each other, to be willing to enter/allow one to enter the interiority of one's life, and to be able to say "I honestly care about you"...

Struggle for the sake of struggle loses its flavor, and when written about will not be good literature...

Genius is called forth into the eloquent clarity of his passions...

one has to believe in love in order to be in love, even if the notion of love itself is a lie... Wouldn't lying be the most truthful thing to do... Love is the most real thing, but it cannot accept truth... I faked when I'm being myself most, so next time when I say "I love you," it only means "I wish I could love you"... Because I don't want to hurt you... No pains, no love... Which do you prefer, a honest marriage, or a deceptive love...?

 

世上最可怜的人，不是那些想要(want to)去爱却不会(unable)去爱的人，也不是那些想要(want to)去爱却不能(incapable)去爱的人，而是那些想要(desire to)去爱而不愿(want to)去爱的人。

when we discover that not one but several cultures exist, we reject, unless proven, the validity of an exclusive, self-imposing narrative – be it illusory or real – as a monopoly. When we realise and accept that others exist, we realise and accept that we are but "others among others." When all unilateral, mythical meanings and purposes disappear, it becomes possible to wander through civilisations as variations of a core idea.

今になってやっと思った、ここを離れて行く時は、心の底から微笑むかもって。もう一度明るく笑えるように、苦しくても、旅を続くわ。あなたから受け継いだ力で、あたし頑張る。

明明是自己要走，怎么有种被人赶走的感觉。。。

然后想到before sunset，觉得我有成为second last woman的潜质。
耐得住寂寞，原来，并不困难。

再然后，和eva视频。
容光焕发的笑脸，让人真想揉一下。
怀念我们的初三。
little E, I'll always stand behind you...
So go ahead, explore and enjoy...
My shoulder is always there...

If you couldn't find someone to be there for you, then be the one to be there for someone...
Stay strong, reliable and with love...

With Love，想到了和Agathe的长谷川。
巴黎的那些照片让人爱不释手。
小女子的小执念终于大大的实现。
而我，也好像躲在那个蓬蓬头里，稍稍窥视了一遭。

什么时候才能去，with love,for love, of love...

Recently,there has been such a notion that grows prominent in my consciousness, namely, a love-based relationship may not necessarily based on the dichotomy of male and female, it values more of the relativity of masculinity and femininity... One possible rendition of this notion could therefore be made as--the object of intellectual and emotional desire and that of a sexual desire may differ, or coincide... This is a formerly intellectually known and currently spiritually deep-felt momentum that has been exerting increasing ponderous influence on me... Now the possibility of myself turning into a homo is officially opened...